Oct 10

He's moody today. I chose to stay away from you.
I keep thinking about my driving lessons and plans after getting DL.
Maybe I'll find a PT job, I've been out of society for too long,
sometimes I feel like I've become a stranger to myself, I slowly don't
know how to associate with others any more...I need to have friends of
my own. Not common friends with him.
I don't know why I feel sorrow, unhappy. I miss the happiness I once had.

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Rebecca YHB

Thank the Lord

All I can say is: Our Lord works in mysterious ways, and He NEVER
forsakes us. He is a loving, caring, merciful God of all! Thank you
for letting me see, thank you for Your Grace.
The end of human is the start of God.

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Rebecca YHB

Where to go?

Somewhere along the road we slipped, we're living our lives as if
we're already dead. Another day has passed by, less meaningful we feel
inside.
We look at each other's face knowing nothing about the truth, its
indeed the saddest feeling of all.
its the trials and tests we go through together, turns out we didn't
pass at all, we're just holding on to ourselves and hoping for the
hope, someday we'll magically become well.
I feel what's inside, the fire of love, is burning down, we need more
fuel to rekindle the dying light, but where to go? Where to go?

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Rebecca YHB

Tired, tired

I'm feeling so tired. I guess you are too.
I read there's a unity of opposites, when the two extremes both exist
in a well balance. We're the two extremes, but why can't we exist in
harmony??
I'm tired of walking on my toes around you, feeling shivers in my
stomach whenever hearing you reason with me.
I'm tired of thinking I'm always wrong and feeling guilty around you.
I assume you feel the same way.
I don't know what will happen in the near future, but I know we're
unhappy and miserable. There's nobody to blame, we just aren't right
for each other.

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Rebecca YHB

I'm standing at a crossroad

What do you do as a partner when two of you are completely different, yet you're committed to each other?
when you realize what he needs is a woman that is wise, inspiring, independent, has a vast mental realm, and is more priceless than a ruby, instead, what you are, is completely different, you're disordered, plain, and boring. you're nothing like what he would want, but it seems like you're both stuck where you're.
would you be frustrated that you can't give what he needs? would you pray and pray and pray that God will change you to a complete different person? would you cry when he hurts your feelings? would you try to defend yourself? would you hate yourself and see yourself as nothing?
you're not happy. you can't fake it. you're not happy because you know this is gonna be the rest of your life. if God is there to bless us, then why can't we be happy with each other? how did we lose the love, the passion, and the happiness we once had?
I'm confused, and I certainly don't know where to turn. I make you miserable why don't you just leave me for good?

Goodbye for now Facebook

I just said good bye to facebook, for various reasons. but I'll be back, don't know when yet.
it's time for me to take some time/mind off of it and refocus on something better.
I'm sure some of people understand what I mean.
Farewell, I'll see you when I see you.

Dynamic duos

More energy: chick peas (iron) & red pepper(vitamin c helps support
and absorb iron)

Better mood: broccoli(calcium) & eggs(vitamin d)

Slimmer waistline: pasta & balsamic vinegar(acidic acid blocks glucose
and starch, slash sugar load by 20%)

By dr oz show

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Rebecca YHB